What a Way to Start the Day

A five minute daydream to start the day had all the trappings of a half day psychedelic journey.  There was the beginning disorientation.  Then the horrific imagery of people I know (e.g. Katie, Rob and Marina) suddenly revealing that they are not my beautiful friends,  but rather, with a small shift in perspective, turn into energetic vampires who have throughout time and space distracted me and kept me in this surrealistic existence.  Then the thought form to go into it, embody this horrifying image and having it shift into yet another phase of existence followed up by a reorientation and later integration back into my regular morning meditation.  Cycle completed.

Think of all the time and money I saved! Sure, I could have totally shroomed out or talked to grandmother ayahuasca, but they are all here, all the time, and the distinction between waking life and dreaming life blurs.  We are always dreaming, and each thought or day dream is only a hairs width away from a dream or full blowing entheogenically induced adventure.  

Where are we in all this.   Existence is not what we think it is.  We are not alive.  We are not dead.  We are always dreaming, a little bit at a time.  What a way to start the day!

Opening/Clearing the Space

Retrocausation is contradictory, but I sense that much of what I have been doing is already leading up to this, because I have already done it.   I've said before that we are portals.  I'm opening even more, if such a thing is the way to describe it.

We clear spaces so that the higher and lower can enter us.  The idea of what we are is murky.  I'm not sure the idea of the self is helpful.  I'm opening to allow higher and lower entities.  Its not like they are physically present.  And they are not in the mind.  And we are not a self.  We are the flux and the focus on these entities arising and falling away.  But that doesn't sound quite right.

I clear the space by allowing the energy of the four directions in.  Like the four petals of a lotus opening in each direction.  And sound and/or vibration and/or color help.  Its also not so much of a clearing as a heightened paying attention.  And I start above me and go beneath my physical body, or I go in the other direction.  And most of the time the heart is the seat of most of the focused energy.

And its different in the forest.  And I'm not sure if I create the difference.  And its different in the Lincoln home area.  And I'm not sure I create that difference either.  And I could say that its because the spirits there are different.  But I'm not quite there yet.  I've been there.  "Been" as a relative term of course.  I'm afraid of that world.  So I close it off.  Its scary experiencing the energy in the room sometimes.  And that deserves further observation and encountering. :-)